So I had a really hard night last night. After the kids were all settled and asleep and Chris and I finally had a moment to contemplate and process all that we were told this past week I broke down. I sobbed on my husband and shook with the fear that has been creeping us inside of me. I cannot explain how life has been turned utterly and completely upside down in days, and I am grieving the loss of my “old life,” my pre-terminal cancer diagnosis. I tried to process the thought of not being here to raise my 3 beautiful girls and walk besides Chris on this journey. I could not wrap my head around it. But then I remembered that God loves my girls more than I do, and I need to trust Him. Chris took me in his arms and cried with me and started praying the most beautiful prayer; just pouring our hearts out to Jesus. He let me cry and be sad and be angry and hurt; and then he reminded me again that God’s got us. And he is right. Thank you Jesus for my amazing husband; I do not deserve him and he is truly a blessing from You for me. So I humbly continue to ask for all of your prayers for us, as they are sustaining us right now. “Those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles;they will run and not grow weary; they will walk and not be faint.” Isaiah 40;31 Love and God bless. April