thank you!

I  just wanted to send a big thank you for all of the love and prayers these past couple of weeks, as well as the cards and messages. I am so sorry that I cannot reach out to everyone individually and I truly want too but there is just not enough time in a day. But please know how grateful I am for your kind words and prayers.. They make such a difference and from the bottom of my heart I am so grateful.God is so good!
Chris and I will be going for all of my scans on Tuesday followed by chemo and then we have decided to go away for a much needed long weekend and try and relax and enjoy some time together! It is the first time we have ever left all three kids for more than one night so please also pray that they will be just fine and that we have safe travels, if you could. I thank you so much! We will get the results on June 10th and I am anticipating showing my doctors this miracle! Thank you for praying that with me!!
Love and God bless, April (:

Update and prayers (from April)

Hello everyone! I hope this update finds you happy and well! We are doing well here, tired, but okay! I met with my doctor yesterday and so my next scans will be on June 3rd. This will be an EKG, bone scan and CT scan to check and see what is going on.I will get the results the following week, on June 10th. I am praying and claiming that Jesus has healed me and I implore all of you to do the same please. If they see that indeed there are no more signs of cancer we are going to come up with a new plan and travel in “unchartered territory” as my doctor said. Usually with metastatic breast cancer the cells have already spread to other areas in your body, primarily the liver, lungs, bones, or brain. Mine may have been a very “rare case” in which it only traveled from the breast and lymph to one other place; the liver, and my radiologist was confident that he could blast it away with the special treatment he did. They will not do surgery on you if you have metastatic cancer sinc e the cells have already spread throughout your body, even cells they cannot yet see. And surgery will not prolong your life; that is why metastatic cancer is “treatable” for a bit but not curable. However, I am praying that it is no where else and I am healed, and that they will do the mastectomy like they would on any other breast cancer patient to prevent it from re-occurring.
It is hard to believe that only 6 short months ago our world was cancer-free, and then all of a sudden has been consumed by this evil disease. I am at a point now where I am just very tired. I know in my heart that God still has us and He is carrying me each and every step,, but I am just tired. The human, sinful side of me is getting weaker. And my girls are getting a bit tired of this, too, I can tell.
Faith has started saying that she would like me to go out more, “not just to doctors, mom”, and this makes my heart so sad. I am torn between wanting to tell her that I do not enjoy going to diff erent doctors 3 days a week and that is why I am so tired and run down and cannot do all of the things I always used to do, but how do you explain to a 6 year old that you are giving your all now so that you will still be here for them many more years from now? I guess there is no way, and I just have to keep on going for now. And even Savannah Grace has been much more clingy lately, asking lots of questions and always wanting to know when I am coming back. And then Bella has started sobbing again when I leave at times, not wanting me to go and saying “I come with you mommy” and I don’t know what is worse: having her cry like that and breaking my heart each time I go or on good days having her NOT cry, and then I think that she doesn’t even care that I am going! Only a mothers’ worry I guess!
But selfishly I miss our life bc-before cancer. I miss having energy to do things in my home and keep up with boring, mundane things like laundry and dishes and organizing the girls clo thes for the different sizes and seasons. I miss being able to keep up with routine things like making our monthly budget and cutting coupons and stocking up when things are on sale (my ocd comes through here, I know!) I miss the “normal” days of our everyday life, where I can go into my girls classrooms and volunteer and not worry about running out to be sick, and going to a regular play group and story time with the girls like I used too. I miss not falling asleep every single night while putting my kids to bed and having energy to stay up and talk to my husband or maybe even watch a movie or do something together! I miss my hair, and my eyelashes and my eyebrows. Silly things, I know, but the wig gives me a headache and moves when I am always holding the kids and mascara used to be my best friend! I never thought about NOT having eyelashes! I miss the independence I used to have and the freedom, even though with three little ones I did not feel free at the time! But oh how I wa s, not having to live my life around doctors and chemo and appointments. I miss being able to commit to things and help others, and just be a somewhat “normal” crazy family!
So I am asking all of you to pray for this weakness that I am feeling right now. I am worn, and just need to be lifted by God’s loving arms once again. I need to be refreshed and feel His calm yet strong voice tell me that He is still there, holding me, every step of the way. I know it in my heart, but I need to just feel it right now. I know this His plan is so much greater than mine could ever be, and that I do trust Him. I trust Him even though I am begging him to now please heal me sooner rather than later because I don’t know how much more of this crazy rat-race we are running I can take. But I also know that it is His will, not mine, and so I am just asking for prayers to calm my restless heart and renew my spirit once again with His love and grace.
As always thank you all for your constant love and prayers for us; for helping us with countless things and for taking care of my girls when I cannot. Thank you for your love and friendship, for your faith and belief, and for lifting me up when I am sometimes just too tired to pray.
Love and Blessings, April and Family

Update and thanks!

Hello everyone! Thank you all once again for the continuous love, prayers, help with meals, babysitting, driving back and forth, laundry, and everything else our family and friends have been helping us with! We could not endure this journey without all of you! We are forever grateful.
I have just finished my 5th and final radiation treatment to my liver, praise God! I will not be scanned until June so please pray that God is continuing to heal by His mercy and love.
I am exhausted and feeling yucky but praise God I made it through that long week! I have chemo again every week beginning tomorrow so please continue to keep us in your prayers for that as well if you could. It never ceases to amaze me how great God is. Through all of this when I cannot even plan for the next hour God already has my days planned out and the help that we need lined up for me. It is a true lesson in humility to realize that you constantly need help but then again God tells us we cannot do this alone; in fact if we try and do it in our own strength we will fail. However, when we do it in His strength we will be okay: “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me,” (Phillipeans 4:13) So this is also a lesson not only in relying on Him but on His word where He promises to give us all that we need to take care of us. I am learning how to graciously receive His blessings and yet we still cannot wait to give back to others once again soon for all we have been given by Him and others!
The girls are doing well; they are adjusting to our new life so well and are very forgiving of me when I do not have as much energy to play or cannot go out because I don’t feel well. They did ask me if my hair will grow back once Jesus heals me and I laughed and replied “yes!” I guess they like me a bit better with hair than without it!
And Chris is doing well too, my husband and best friend. He has been so supportive on this journey with me. Lord knows his life has been t hrown upside too by all of this and he has not once complained. (I am truly blessed to have you, babe!)
I hope that life is treating everyone well and am so happy to see some signs of spring arriving here! Praise God! Love and God bless, April (:

Meals

Hi all-
Someone brought to my attention that the food & diet lists are still on the site.
If you’d like to cook a meal do not worry about doing a restricted organic meal for April.
You can prepare a salad for her & that would be fine! She can’t eat much but salads of all kinds are great. And the girls can always eat meat, Mac n cheese, plain pasta. (:
Sorry I had forgotten to remove the diet restrictions!
Any questions just email me. Thank you so much!!!
Lisa (:

Meals for May, June, July

Hi Everyone-
I know we’ve been asking a lot of our friends & family lately–but we are in need of volunteers to either cook a meal and drop it off to April’s house in CT (or Chris’s office in RI) for the next few months. April’s having radiation, then chemo then surgery & we are in need of help for this long haul ahead.

You can sign up for a meal on the calendar on this site.

For people near Voluntown, we’d love a meal for the kids (and April & Chris but most importantly the kids!) Cooked or store-bought–either one is great!

For those in Rhode Island, feel free to cook/pick up food & drop it off to Chris at his office in Smithfield. (We can provide the details.)

For those that don’t live near CT or RI, feel free to send a meal via PeaPod (Stop and Shop) or do a takeout order at Town Pizza or Dan’s Place.

We can’t thank you enough for your prayers, donations, & help for April, Chris & the girls! It’s been amazing how much support everyone is giving them! THANK YOU so much!

Please call/email me if you need more info/have questions.
Thank you!
Lisa (:

Its a glorious day!

Oh what a glorious day!So it is Tuesday and for the first time in 4 months I am not having chemo today! Whoo hoo! I am on a chemo vacation this week in prep for my radiation treatments next week. It just so happens that my girls are also on vacation this week! Coincidence? I think not! God is so good! He had this time planned long before I knew. We are going to the Ct children’s museum to celebrate!

April fundraisers for April!

Well it was a busy weekend to say the least! On Saturday, April 12th, April’s classmates from Assumption College class of ’99 put together a beautiful fundraiser in her honor. Approximately 70 people attended and after a beautiful mass, they all danced, ate, and celebrated April’s successes and prayed for her complete recovery. The energy in the room was amazing and April didn’t disappoint. In spite of everything, she was her bouncy, amazing, upbeat self–kicking her shoes off early in the night and even dancing to New Kids on the Block!

The following day (as exhausted as she was!), April and her family attended “April’s Hope”, a figure skating benefit put on by her friends of 20+ years Carrie and Caryn. It was a beautiful, inspiring show and Faith and Savannah Grace were mesmerized by the skaters!

Thank you to everyone that not only put together such fantastic events, but that gave April a night and day that she will never forget!

~Beth Robert-Small

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Thank you!

Thank you to my Assumption College family and friends for an incredible evening last night ! It felt like it was just yesterday that we were all there together! We are so humbled and amazed at the generosity of our wonderful friends and family from college and home and we cannot thank Pat ,Lauren , Laura, Jennie, Karen , Joe , Caryn and the rest of the committee members for all of their love and hard work. We are forever grateful. God is so good and He shined through every one of you who were there last night. Love you all!

2 amazing fundraisers this weekend

Hi Everyone! I just wanted to share the two fundraisers that are being held for us this weekend by my longtime friends, which we are truly so grateful for. They have all worked so hard at planning these and we are so excited to be able to attend them! We hope to see you there if you are able to make it! Love and God bless, April, Chris,Faith, Savannah Grace and Isabella (:

Assumption College Fundraiser
Saturday, April 12th @ 4:30
500 Salisbury Street, Worcester, MA
Chapel mass followed by cocktail reception
Raffles, silent auction, live band!
$25 pre order tickets
$30 tickets at the door
Please RSVP to Laura Parrillo @ Aprilsnight99@gmail.com or Patrick Foran (508) 385-1355 ext211

Benefit Ice Show for Breast Cancer
Featuring
Multiple local and international ice skaters
Sunday, April 13, 2014 @ 3:30
The Rodman Arena
2130 Providence Highway, Walpole MA
Raffles, silent auction and much more!
Donations a ccepted at the door
All proceeds will be donated to the Avon Breast cancer walk and to defray medical costs for April and her family.

Liver radiation (from April)

Hello Everyone! Thank you all so much for your continued love, prayers, support and help for us. We cannot tell you how much it has all meant to us and how we are truly grateful from the bottom of our hearts. God is so good, He has provided all that we need during this trying time, especially giving us all of you to help us along. We could not do it alone, but I know that we don’t have too.

Chris and I met with a specialist yesterday and because of last week’s amazing results they are going to do this special radiation procedure on my liver. Since all of the lumps and cancer are gone from my breast and lymph, and also so much from my liver (there are only 2 tiny spots left and this could even be leftover dead cells that have just not been rid from my body yet, they said! ) they want to treat me with this special radiation to make sure that if there are still cancer cells there they zap them completely. So we will be going for 5 treatments of this radiation, I forget the name of it but they usually do it all in one blast but since the liver is near the heart and other organs they have to break it up and do it in 5 separate treatments to reduce the risk of damage to my other organs. So this is a good thing that they are being so cautious, and I am just thankful that I am eligible to have it done. So please keep us in prayer over the next couple of weeks for that. I will be off of chemo while they are doing this but it will involve lots of driving back and forth to Yale and being away from my girls more. I know that they will be fine but it is still hard to leave them all of these times, too!

Once that procedure is through I will go back on the chemo for 3 more months and re-scan after all of this. Then, if all is well and we are claiming that it will be I will be scheduled for my full masectomy surgery. So we have a very long road ahead of us, and I am humbly asking everyone to keep praying. I am not afraid, for I know that God is with me, “I know who goes before me, I know who stands behind, the God of angel armies, is always by my side.” But I still covet your prayers and love for us during this time. For we all know how amazing the power of prayer is!! Just so incredible! How great is our God?!!

Thank you, thank you, from the bottom of my heart and may God bless all of us. Love, April and Family (:

The test results are in! (from April)

From March 18, 2014:
“How great is our God? Sing with me how great is our God, and all will see, how great, how great, is our God.” We have just gotten out of our doctor ‘s and this sums it up, so here I go! No more tumors found anywhere in the breast! (Thank you Lord!) the two tumors in the liver have shrunk from 22cm to 7 cm-Thank you Lord! They had to bring my case to two tumor boards last Wednesday (Yale and Mass general) because they have never seen anything like this before! Again, thank you Lord! They are setting me up with a specialist to get the two tiny spots on the liver treated, along with 3 more months of the chemotherapy I am on now. Then, if all is well I go in July for a double mastectomy followed by more intense chemo to be sure and go from there! This will be a long road but God is good and He will be with us through it all! Chris is shaking right now and I am just smiling at him saying” see, I told you! I am going to be healed !” Amen thank you Jesus! Please please keep praying that my medicine keeps working as well as it has been and that God keeps pouring out His love and mercy on us. We thank you all from the bottom of our hearts! “I’ve seen miracles just happen, silent prayers get answered, broken hearts become brand new, that’s what faith can do.”

Waiting! (from April)

Thank you all for the love and prayers for today. We are driving home now; it was a long day but we are okay! God is good! We meet with my doctors next week before chemo to see where we go from here. Please pray for patience and God’s peace for us this week as it will probably be a long one! Thank you all from the bottom of our hearts for the continued love, help , and prayers. Love and God bless, April, Chris and girls

Fundraiser on April 12

April’s undergraduate college–Assumption College–is organizing a fundraiser on April 12, 2014.

This will include a mass, cocktail reception and silent auction.

This event is now public–all family members, friends, church members & supporters are invited to attend the event. Feel free to share this event with friends & family! The goal is to raise $10,000 with this fundraiser!

Date: April 12, 20014
Location: Assumption College, Worcester, MA
Mass at 4:30 p.m. followed by a cocktail reception, raffle & live auction
Tickets are $25 in advance; $30 at the door
**RSVP: To aprilsnight@gmail.com or 508-385-1355 ext. 211

Huge thank you to the class of 1999 for organizing this!